We always look to the future for a sense of hope, a sense of belonging, a sense of making the right choice. People always want to look upon their futures to rectify the mistakes they made in their lives. It seems gracious. It seems as if if they could have lived their lives in a better way they would have. But what about the past? Would they have done things differently if they went back? Or does that dwell upon an existential question? I have always wanted to see my future. Being the sort of logical person that I am, it would be foolish if I was given a choice to go forward and erase the bad parts. But why do I have this unsettling feeling that if I had gone backward I would have mended things in a lot better way?

I'm 26. Not much of a past. Blatantly, uneventful. I live in the present and dream about the future so full of possibilities. Does that make an analogy to the present and the future? If so, what would I want to change? The past or the future? The past would mean me wanting to change the way I become. The future would mean me wanting to change the way I am. Both do not do justice to who I want to be. And the most annoying part is that it is in the future that I want changes. Except for a few permanent attributes.

I do want to be in technology. Something that has always fascinated and challenged me. And I do want to be in education. Something that I always thought I was good at. I guess it was always a point of me figuring out what essentially I wanted to be. Man, I hope this sustains me in the next few years that come. If I look back and cringe, it means I have accepted society's norms.